I’m pretty wiped out for some reason. Just had a lot on my mind, I guess, and working a lot. So just a video today, but arguably the most awesome video I’ve ever posted.
I think I’m going to have to try this one out.
Category: Blogging
Today is another Reverb10 post:
December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? (Author: Alice Bradley)
This past year, I have made pretty great strides in letting go of my self-derision. Letting go of my self-criticism. That’s not to say that I don’t step back and evaluate, because without that, we’d all be terrible people. What I mean is, I have made steps to become less hard on myself. To appreciate my own talents a little more.
While it may seem insignificant to you, it’s a huge thing for me. Though I’ve still got a lot of work to do in building up my self-image, and my confidence. I have always been pretty rough on myself. I have a few skills that I KNOW I have, and I’m proud of those. But for everything else, I usually just feel mediocre at best. A fraud, a joke. And I don’t want to feel that way about myself.
By letting go of all those negative thoughts, I think I can move forward, hone the skills I already have, and sharpen the ones that I may not be so good at, but would like to be. There’s freedom that comes in feeling like it’s okay to fail, okay to not be perfect. Okay to be working, growing, learning. And with that freedom, comes the ability to see improvement, which is a far cry different than just seeing how each piece fails to measure up to some Platonic form. A far cry better.
To what have you let go?
To sum up the last year in a word, I would have to choose “regrouping.”
When January rolled around, I was just about 4 months into my current job, a job in which the typical training period is about 3 months. I was still learning, still experiencing new situations, and in the midst of what seemed like constantly changing coworkers. It was topsy-turvy, and I wasn’t so sure about it.
Honestly, I’m still not. I’m in an industry I never expected to be, but when I took the job, I was desperate. I was just coming out of 10 months of near-unemployment, and the bills were piling up. I had some work, but it was pretty sparse, and money was pretty tight. But, along came this job , and suddenly we were able to shift out of mere survival and actually work for some of the things we wanted.
And while we bought the house in 2009, we were able to put some work into the house this year. We bought new furniture, filled in some bare spots on the walls with pictures and art, mounted the TV to the wall, put in some home theater equipment. It’s been great turning this house into a home. We were able to take a vacation, and put some money in savings.
It’s been a welcome change of pace, and we’ve been able to regroup, and make some plans to make life even better down the road.
I don’t mean to say that 2009 was at all a bad year, a lot of it just seemed like a rat-race, especially since I was at home so much, what with the being unemployed and everything. Here’s hoping to an even better 2011, with an emphasis on growth, rather than regrouping.
(This post is inspired by Reverb10)
Well, I made it. Today is the last day of NaBloPoMo, and I haven’t missed a single day. It’s been tough, and, admittedly, some of the posts have been pretty lame. Sorry about those. I’m going to work a little more at posting quality content on a regular basis.
For the first time, I have a planned schedule. I’ve been keeping ahead of schedule, being one or two days ahead of schedule. Instead of stressing out about what I was going to post, I had time to think about the posts, and come up with something. I feel like they’ve gotten better toward the end of the month here, as I got the hang of scheduling the posting.
In any event, NaBlo was an enjoyable experience this year, rather than stress-inducing. So, as we wrap up the month, I just wanted to say thanks to Rachelskirts and gRegorLove for the comments and support, a lot of which happened behind-the-scenes. So, thanks you guys!
Here’s to an equally productive December. If nothing else, I’ve got the 30 Days of Truth to fall back on to keep me posting. But, great November, everyone! Hope you all keep it up in December!