I’ve quite obviously been out of the blogging game for a while. The semester sort of blew up right there at the end, and I was a bit overwhelmed with a few things, so I decided to take a little hiatus.
Well, now I’m back (from out space), and I’ll be posting more frequently again.
Right at the end of the semester, from a combination of 4 months of not sleeping, a massive amount of work coming down on my head, and my ever-recurring chemical imbalance, I ran into some pretty severe depression, which culminated in my taking some actions I really ought not have. I’m not really going to go into detail, but suffice it to say it scared me and some people around me enough to convince me to go see a doctor again to get back on anti-depressants.
I’ve been on anti-depressants in the past, and I’ve never really liked them. As much as I know it to be false, I can never quite shake the feeling that by getting on anti-depressants I’m making an admission that I’m not strong enough, that I’ve got something wrong with me, that I’m a failure. However, this time, I knew I needed to do something, so here I am, back on anti-depressants.
In the past, the medication has had all manners of strange side-effects, which led me to stop taking them. This time, I’m on Cymbalta, and it seems to be working really well. For the first week or two, the medicine made me pretty sick to my stomach; however, they said that was fairly common and it’d go away. It did. Since then, I haven’t really had any side effects. The other medications put me into a fog, where I couldn’t think clearly or quickly, and I lost any sense of creative drive, but Cymbalta hasn’t done that. It’s equalized my mood without making me feel artificially giddy and without killing my ability to think.
I think this is a good thing: the medication is working like it’s supposed to, and I’m feeling better. Hopefully, that’ll help me with this whole blogging thing; when I’m depressed, I don’t really want to do much of anything, but now that I’m feeling better, I get the gumption up to do some writing every now and then.
I just hope I still have some readers.
glad you seem to have found something that works well for you. rock on, man.
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jake: Thanks, bud.
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You haven’t lost me yet. I’m glad the Cymbalta is working without making you less than you could be. :)
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hey tyler.. i’m still here! are you staying at the bs house this summer? maybe we can get lunch sometime. take care man.
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seven: Woo! Thanks for the well wishing.
phil: Woo! Yeah, I’m staying at the Brian Society, so we’ll definitely meet up sometime.
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Anti-depressants never really did do anything for me. Just watch out- when your having a couple of drinks, those pills kick in and have you feeling strange!
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